Hi there. My name is Jill. I am a 29 (almost 30) year old woman. I live in Mansfield, MA and work in part-time in Boston, MA. The days that I am not at my office, I am being a single mother to my 8-month-old daughter.
I have a long history of depression. At the age of 12, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder after having suicidal thoughts and attempting to end my life. My life was great… but the chemicals in my brain felt otherwise. Being diagnosed with MDD at such a young age wasn’t easy but I have learned a lot about mental health since then. At the time, I had no idea that depression was something that would be in my life for many years to come.
In 2017 I had a semi colon tattooed on my left wrist for suicide/mental health awareness. It was also a reminder of my own experience with depression and suicide. I had a diamond tattooed on my right wrist because diamonds are rare and strong.
On May 17th, 2020 I attempted suicide. I took 25 of my 200mg Wellbutrin pills hoping to end my life. Instead, I ended up in the ICU for two days, stayed in the hospital for a total of four days and was then transferred to a locked psychiatric unit on a section 12b hold.
I am a terrible writer but I wrote a book after my failed suicide attempt and my experiences after. My book is called “Survivor: Diamonds Don’t Break”.
I want to help other people that have been in similar situations as me. I want to give people hope when they have none left. Obviously, there is a lot more to my story, but I can only type so much here. I used to be so ashamed of my diagnosis and my story… but the older I’ve gotten the more passionate I have become about my experience. I don’t really know exactly what I can do to help or how this works, but I want to do something!